It's weird going back and seeing these things. 

The past seems to be created so much faster lately.  

The pandemic makes it feel like it was a lifetime ago I coded in dart and made this.

I've learned a lot since then. 

Both about coding and about...

How hurt trying to run the discord made me?

It was too much for how my personality works.  I tried so hard to make it fair and safe and fun. 

I gave too much of myself to it.


Today, according to my google calendar reminders, is the anniversary of the discord being founded. Is it four years now? Five?

Five seems right. 

Hell, it could even be six, and I wouldn't know. 

I hope everyone is happy there. 

I hope that people enjoy being in a one-degree-separated homestuck fandom space.

I hope people enjoy dollsim and wigglersim and yes, sburbsim.

I know the waste shit isn't for everyone, but I hope those who stumble into it enjoy it as well. You're my true audience. 

That's what I've learned over the years. That the things I make on the surface are window dressing for what I'm really making.

Anyways.

Check out ZampanioSim maybe. I've made peace with the fact that I enjoy making fanworks. I hope you have, too.